Tuesday, November 4, 2008

when I went to my review on monday

when I went to my review on monday...
I just realized how much I am affected by fear of failure. When I saw Jamie and Michael sitting there it seemed as though I was talking to my parents after the first time I ever did something really outlandishly wrong. Like the first time I got caught drinking by my parents.
Well, thats not who they are. My problem is•••I need to see that like my parents, they are here to help (not to baby-set(or by me things for christmas( or teach me to tie my shoes). The same problem occurred last year with Jim Sajovic, the painter. He was an amazing teacher but seemed incredibly critical. No matter how hard I tried there was no pleasing him indefinitely. His words were much more helpful at the end of the year that the beginning (his words never changed).

I guess I'm saying that I know now that it may not be about pleasing them, but really about working through the project and finding as many solutions that make sense and get the message to viewers across the board. 

Jamie and Michael have clarified to me that I haven't been one two overlook form, but sometimes translation is overlooked. This is a problem. If I can translate better what I need to say, I would be pleased and the teachers will be pleased.

Hope to come to a point soon where I feel comfortable talking in critique. It would be nice to make that situation a natural thing for me. To address form and concept for me is to much like saying two words at once.
––––––this is why I have decided to start writing more.

then I dont have to say two words at once because Its more of a time sequential activity than thinking is.